ring out the old.

ring in the new!

2008.. kinda a miserable year.
the year that yuanteng got sucky SPM result.(n yet not sad!)
the year that yuanteng faces choosing her next path after high school
the year that yuanteng chose wrong course.
the year that yuanteng deferred here n there.
the year that yuanteng transferred here and there.
the year that yuanteng asking for help n advises, n yet no one can actually help up.
the year that yuanteng looses high skul friends and learn to let things go.
the year that yuanteng adapting new environment.
the year that yuanteng adapting those cultural shock.
the year that yuanteng really dont enjoy going to the school and those craps activities.

Ring out, ring out my mournful rhymes
Old papers thrown away,
Old garments cast aside!
shoooohs!

ring~ WAIT! ring~
let the sweet one remain in yuanteng's heart!
2008..
the year that yuanteng and him are we.
the year that yuanteng turns aliens into friends.(no offends my 2008-made-friends)
the year that yuanteng take in new stuff. accounts. and economics! and a little bit of designs!
the year that yuanteng solved rubik's cube the magic cube.
the year that yuanteng bake delicious cupcakes with beautiful toppings.(especially thanks to rachel.)
the year that yuanteng went langkawi with them very happily.
the year that yuanteng stayed in the 5stars horsy hotel.
the year that yuanteng experienced in a 180km/hr car.
the year that yuanteng performed a duet piece.
the year that yuanteng learns to play mah jong in advance level.


see... ten vs ten! balance! my 2008 new year resolution was to balanced up life.
so?
resolution achieved! =D

The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months!

make it a BEDTIMESTORY.

yes, i watched bedtime story today.
i can grade it as 5stars out of 5 tho!
so watch it people.
i hafta buy the dvd,
miss the last part, dun ask me why! -.-

thanks!

Rubik's babe!

yuanteng
solved




rubik's cubieeee!



ignore the number. mum bought it from jonker street @ rm3.90. wut to expect?
neways, fun puzzle tho. as least its easier than accounts!


its 3.59am now. *yawns* zzzZZ
chaoz!

have no idea.

friends who chat with you means they will chat with you forever.
friends who added u for the sake of adding you. they will remain silent forever.

i dump my pc aside for months, dont ask why. just not interested into it.
eventually, lost contact with friends.
was bored almost to death, and i went back to the net... i on my msn.. silent! noone talk to me. den a while more heard some nudging.. take a look!!! all old friends =) they are those who spent time with me last last last time, during the high skul days.. thought the days n nights. =D
friends forever!

*****

hmmm... felt in love with a guy younger than me tho. its so NONO!
well, not in love la. just cant help staring at his picture a little longer. will get rid of this nonsense soon larrrrr!

when yuanteng meets yuanteng.

1.
blardyyy hellll, who is this?!?!?!


2.
eeeeeeeyyy.... apa benda ni?

3.
arrrrrgggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!


4.
omg, still here! -.-

original, one-of-a-kind.

peeps,

Christmas is just around the corner!

How lovely it would be to drop a handmade Christmas card down the chimneys of your loved ones and dearest friends.
Imagine that broad smile on your loved ones' faces when they receive a card filled with love, joy and warmth from you, especially so when it is handmade . =)

i'd made some christmas cards available for sale as usual. =)
They will be blank on the inside for your sentiments unless you state otherwise.
feel free to let me know your special requirements.. if u have any.
like to whom u sending to, wut special notes, message, or even photos,
I will include it in your cards.(this is custom made! =)
envelopes are prepared.
i will mail it to the person if u wish.

if you are interested,
please email me at yuant10@yahoo.com
your name,
mailing address,
contact number and
order quantity
I'd be happy to mail you the samples and the prices(including postage for anywhere in malaysia).

yuanteng says thanks! =D

mr postman!

dear sunway alevel ppl.
u know wut?


im waiting for the mr postman every morning..



our semester results will reach us soon.. lollll

my cousin dearest. mr raymond goh koon oh.

1st of all.. thank you my cousin dearest for reading my blog and got misunderstood
and let everyone a great laugh!
hahahahaha.

this is how is goes.. at centro starbucks after our bah kut teh breakfast, last friday (5/12/08)
ray: cousin!!! u i read ur bloggg.. uh..
me: yea?
ray: .uh... u.. u... u really.. uh... no more ar??
mich, sin,ellen & me: hahahahahahahahahahahahahhhahahhaha~

this show how suci is my couin ler! =D


*to clarify*
dear world.
yours truly still a virgin larrrrr!!!!!

leeyuanteng.blogspot

hi ppl.
i just realized something, siao chien asked me.
'eh, y the yuanteng i know, n the yuanteng in leeyuanteng.blogspot totally terbalik?'
lolll 'everyone got thier own different times ma.. ups n downs.. smile n frowns. so happen i sad n down only go online n upload. hard times gimme more inspiration?? lol' says me.
'den ppl will misunderstand u. ppl will think yuanteng is a sad girl by jus reading your blog.'

itssss so true...! now only i sedar..
so people.. dun judge me by just reading my blog.
altho is true tat wut i'd posted are all my feelings, but thats only one side of me.


i will post more of the other side of me larrr kay! =)

devirginized

yea. devirginize from club. lol as a 1st timer n a girl who dont fancy drinking n loud music.. i thought i will be bored there.
but end up, i decided to go because i duwan to stay at home alone on 15th november 2008, i knew i will think i alot, end up wetting my pillow(again), it was a special day.. its very torturing to spend ur special day alone.

surprisingly, i didnt really feel awkward when im inside the club. i tried to love the music.. n i loved! =D i tried to drink, n i drank.. but is just bacardi la..-.- i tried to dance, n i danced.. =) i just simply love the dance floor. i felt secured. i felt loved. im happy! i didnt knoe i can just forget about everythg that bothers me all day long just lidat. really enjoyed.

after clubbing, i had a bad headache. lol but is worth i guess! =D


today i found out something very wierd. i enjoy hugging a lot. owh my goodness!! i think im lack of love. lol

incident one: last friday during the feel the heat telematch. i represented the mummy for my group.. after wrapping me up n my group members actually should protect me from opponents throwing wet sponge to wet me. den hui sin actually hugged me n protected me from water splashing on me. i miss that feeing. (huisin, its okie im not lesbian or something, im still finding my prince charming. XP)

incident two: during clubbing, on the dance floor.. i was dancing v one of my random friend. i cant really describe how v dance, kinda hugging but not exactly. i just love the feeling. i think i should pick up dancing class! XD

incident three: i was a very "asianic" girl who dont like getting too close to freinds, especially guys. i dont use to hug or kiss someone when v meet or apart. but i dunno when this changed.. i automatically hug my friends when i making a move or v meet up. this is wierd. i want to be the asianic yuanteng larrr!

13.11.2008

when theres nothing left for me,

im very glad that exams are nearby and studies occupy my time.

i can stay back in college n spent my 13hours in college eveyday.

very happy that theres a bunch of college friends that actually enlighten my day.

and wet pillows accompany me throughout my night.

karma.

listening to the rain all day long.

my kite is gliding very inefficiently in a very low altitude, i wonder y im not afraid it might drop down someday. or m i actually waiting for the day? im waiting for myself to fall n feel the pain, is that the only way to wake myself?
my laziness, u cant imagine. my laziness today is as much as the laziness in other random human have to accumulate in 3 years.
today piano class chated whole loads of craps as usual. didn't practice as usual too. den teacher ask me what i did throughout the whole damn week, finally i started to really think bout it literately.
did i finish homework?(maths, accounts)
did i finish few weeks back homework?(accounts)
did i study econs? did i started decorating the a'levels staff room board?
did i send my pc to repair?
did i at least read something?
den wut the f im doing the whole damn week?? i really cant figure out.
i wonder how many tomoro i left?
n how many tomoro to semester exam.
tel me why am i not nervous at all about it?
even during class, while angel n devil r fighting on my mind, devil wins all the time. and i fainted .. zzZZ
may be my piano teacher is right, she say i should be sent to oversea n survive alone. only i will wake up n force my self to really study from the second i open my eye to the second i close my eye.

for my children, mamie earth.

this is so so true!

those fridays

whenever i come to this blog, i brain just malfunction n go senseless.


i heart

my love towards friday's piano class. the place which me n my cousin dearest un-stress our unhappiness that we stuff into our heart for the whole week.
screams, shouts, laughs, snacks, tea will be there with us every week.
friday dearest!
TEACHER cruely SEPARATE Me N mY COUSiN, just because we are too noIsy!
teacher want me to come on wednesday afternoon. aiks!
i: okie, i will come on every wednesday, n some fridays please????
she said: NO!


There are so much to love in this life. I want to take note of that every single day.

Wishing you many love moments with your family, friends and the world around you today!

whatchamacalit.

accounts. i dont want. =(

depreciation. it depresses me.

psychology. do you want me?

miss ida. "its no advisible."

friday. he will be back.

next two weeks. we will talk about it.

hari raya. its geeting nearer.

deepavali. im afraid.

christmas. im waiting.

lim sze yi. grew mature.lol.

sadness and happiness have been placed there by god.

emotions come and go.

neverland.

yuanteng wants to take a cab to... neverland. a place which time will stop running. a place which no one can bring me to.
if drinking helps, i will try.
if speeding helps, i will try.
if smoking helps, i will also try.
but nothing above could help to reduce my pain.
i shall learn to endure the pain and face the fact.
slacking alone is all i can for now. please let me sleep.
do chanting still work? please god.
hoping for the sun to stop shinning.
hoping for the moon to glow dimmer.
oh, wait, moon reflects sunlight right?
great, let the moon stop glowing too.
dear world, ignore me.
over reacting is wut he said i am.
no, i said loudly.
let me be.
do i cry when i fail my papers in skul?
do i blame myself and complain about everything like how a bitch does?
oh god. wut i did. and wut im doing now.
wake up when september ends.
sad has it limit too.

welcome.

owh.. this 7months old fella came to my family on 16th aug 2008. one day before mum's birthday! so we decided to celebrate thier b'day together next time! lol.
owh yea her name is Bobo sassy-lee, a baby pug by the way! haha. she has got her 1st period on 6th sept 2008. lol mum wants to train her to say "wo ai ni" because she says odie the talking pug can say "i love you". lol

he can sings.

additional 3 smiles :] :] :]

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
Cause I'd miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

Lying close to you,
feeling your heart beating,
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing,
And then I kiss your eyes,
And thank God we're together,
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever,
Forever and ever.

(Chorus)

And I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss,
I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this,
Well I just wanna hold you close,
And feel your heart so close to mine,
And just stay here in this moment,
For all the rest of time
Yeah (yeah) yeah (yeah) yeah

(Chorus x2)

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

pictures.

back back back!!!
still no inspiration lar.. nvm la. this time got pictures to entertain u people!

6/9/2008
my 2nd sister dearest, graduated! =)

leeyuanDING. quite difficult to pronouce her name fast. the fella announce it as leeyuanteng. lolll dad ask me to go up the stage to collect MY cert.




me and dad.

thiam hsin n siblings.



hehe. chipmunks! ling's n wei kiat's



will update more pictures, the rest are not in my computer yet.

heh! short one.

piano exam is 65hours from now!
wait for my distinction people!
see ya!

monthly rantings.

5 freaking huge pimples breaking out because of that stupid bloody once in a month, 12 times a year, 500 times a life time only-girls-gonna-suffer-thing! now u see me with pimples, later u see me screaming because of the monthly pain! bloody hell.

dealing with feelings.

oh. finally.
guess spiders'd already form webs all around my blog tho.


sexy back. yup! =)


back to topic.
dealing with feelings. have u ever felt left out? well, not just those feeling left out because u cant join in the cliques, no body wants to play with u n those. i know Everyone feels left out by friends once in a while. but this time is not the same. mainly is about self-esteem i guess. have u ever found your self hide away from others just because ur not smart enuf, not pretty enuf, not out standing enuf, ur english wasnt good enuf to mix with them. yisssshh! hate that feeling. n yet, worse part, even the person ur closest with are not by urside. yuanteng felt left out, and the feeling was hurtful. wut else? i have to continue to smile...

i know my self-esteem wasnt that low. but its just that moment im feeling that way. i just cant think that im beautiful at that moment. keep beating myself up over my weaknesses, comparing myself to others. im wondering how could this happenned. to me. -.- the feelings were taking over me. i wonder why.

or this may be karma. lol
back in school, especially in primary..(high school oso got abit.. bit.. lah)
i always have my own cliques in school. n we can be very mean over some little small stuff!!! and quite hurtful in the way we treat other so-called friends who aren't in our cliques. Sometimes we just left out some friends because they look, act, or dress differently from us. and we just want to be popular and feel cool. -.- lol we always get the best treatment from teachers, or get the best room n activities in class trips. we just dun care about others. even the bench we used to sit on during recess is only for us. but wait.. before u get me wrong, let me get u right 1st. altho i have this kinda cliques but we are not those big bullies okie. we still treat other friends nicely. =) we still talk to them, invite them to parties n all that. and yea, i believe everyone are like that when their young right? we choose friends according who they are, but not what they did. lol so realistic!
okie, enuf of story time, thats schooling time tho.
believe me, im better now, just not perfect.
close to perfect, can?

life's challenges.

today. not a very pleasant day, in fact.. sucky, i would say. beside the morning.
my day started out just like most other fridays. having class at 1030am morning, saw friends and said hello on my way in. things went smoothly.. accounts class.. so called "inter-college-fair".. den gasoline.. everything went close to perfect.

until the A-race started... i dunno how come n why. it just brought my mood downnnn... stupid race. stupid games. stupid team. stupid ppl. i just hate it. im sorry to be rude to my team mate. but yea, i wasn't enjoying. tat y. i didn't even get the chance to look at the clue paper. not to mention to solve it. to solve it or not is a different thing, but i didn't even get the chance touch it. they do it all by them self.. n order the rest to run here n there like some mad cows. worse still, run three wrong places.
may be i should join huisin's group when they offer before the race starts.


after the stupid race, i rushed back for my piano class. hope for the best. but unfortunately, i cant play my 2nd piece. not to mention the scales, oral, sight reading which i really suck at all. teacher said my 3rd piece not qualify to pass also. n i left one more month, 4 more classes before th exam. i really duwan to fail this time. i felt stressed n overwhelmed n it seriously affecting my physical and mental well-being. i really have no idea what to do with it.


after the whole bloody day, i went home finally.. expecting for some rest in order to continue life's challenges. Mum dearest, started her daily rants, n complainsS about her life n basically everything. don't get me wrong, i do love my mum, n she is a super mum i would say. but she is even stressed than everyone do. she is a business woman, a mum, a wife, a daughter, a sister... her role if her life is much more difficult than mine. n so she have to pour out all her dissatisfactions to someone. unfortunately, im the one, her daughter. i use to talk back when im young n think that thats not my responsibility to listen to all her rants n ruin my own day, n end up quarrels. but now, im 18, im no longer the little spoilt kid that acts like a queen. i understand her need as a normal human being, and so i decided to keep quiet and listen to mum dearest. keep quiet because i ve no better suggestions. listen in order to let her feel better. i hope wut im contributing now helps n make some positive changes in her life.


tears n smiles shall call it a day. i knew thing ain't that bad as how it appeared in my mind. but when all things come together at once. who can cope?
i know i shouldn't cry here n move forward. life's going on. but sometimes, i need arms to cry on. i need shelter to rest in. i need an ear to pour on. a pillar for me to hold on when im falling.


specially thanks to mr tan chong yee for being such a patient friend today. you're such a great listener. infact, listening is more than enuf.


stay strong yuanteng.Don’t let tension build up and ruin your. good work. Pace yourself throughout the day.

learning my limits on sunday morning.

went back high school yesterday for scout's camp fire.
beside the events going on and the tasty nasi lemak i had.. i'm feeling rather shock n real happy seeing all my good old friends. sometimes when things happened and things change(which we really cannot control), the friendship eventually fades as time flies. but i didn't know even it fades or we seldom get to know each others new life, talking lesser to each other, the bond between us remains there. i met a friend whom i rarely talk to like for 2 years, but before that we are real good friends.. i didn't know that i act could pour everythg to him, mainly bout relationship. thats one of the thing that i do not share to everyone. he is not those smart, talented, well looking, great man who all girls dream man. but still, i trust him. this is the true friendship? yea.

huisin stayed over in my place. we chatted, not crapped.
sometimes holding things too tightly or taking things too heavily/seriously doesnt mean it wont go. so why not just let it be? when it comes, u appreciate it, when it goes, no one can really stop it. live in the present n have no regrets later on. =D i love this the most, huisin.
i miss xinyu.





i feel like talking to one of my very nice friend in sarawak(he'd beed there for like 2 weeks), but im afraid that he wants a brand new life over there without me. felt to stupid about us.

rojak tales.

getting into a lvls better now.

ex-classmate-keikei going back to hong kong today, she seems really upset, she was quiet through the journey to pyramid on saturday-her farewell. hope she's fine there n doing well.its truely a taugh thg she is going through. no choice but to let go every thing here, after living here for bout 10 plus plus years?? places. her house here, her mum n brother. friendships. relationship? hmmm.hope she will be get into her life in hong kong easily. all the best. =) snap pictures.. but its v sumin.

hah, attn here please...
go check ur mail box now, n see if maybank post u any advertistment brochurss introducing maxis smart plan n free mobile phones or buy in a cheaper rates? well, those mail that usually will not be entertain n known as rubbish soon to be dump into the rubbish bin, or better, blue recycle bin??
DONT throw ppl, donate to me please!!!!! =) read the top fine lines, FREE two KFC snack plates! im smart enough n redeemed 10 snack plate coupons.. (i have 5 family members who all are maybank user!) smart but kind la, donated some to my sistersss! haha. had KFC ytd. =)

feel like continue my hand made card business.. so happy.. my ex-costomer asking bout my card making business. heh, asking m i selling now wey. so PROUD! well, im always. had some ideas alrealy. all i need is just free time! will be posting samples soon. =) so ppl, any occasions coming on? bday? celebration of love? anniversary? papa mama day? random one? YES, custom made by yuanteng.

business history:
200 or 100?? well, i remember its 3digits amount of small cards were sold in a function held in taylors.
about 20plus amount of custome made cards were sold to personnel friends. 20plus only?? yea, all custome made la. brain dont generate so many ideas yknow. n yea, is just christmas cards. so yea, tats y.

proud?
yes.
can?

add maths my dear friend.

before spm-
yuanteng: stupid add maths.. im so gonna forget everything about u after SPM. i promiseeeed. n i will for sure! not saving u in my brain, not even 1mb. -.-

after SPM-
yuanteng: yes!!! finally u've been forgottan! bye add maths. i wont miss u definately! =D

A levels-
yuanteng: sorry add maths.. my bad. my bad. come back to me pleeeeaaassssseee~~?? *watery doggie eye*

dead? where got so fast.

i hate this feeling. i wonder if I'm a little sua ku or not. i cant get into new environment easily. i don't like to change my lifestyle.. i wanna stay the way I'm. i had the same feeling as last time in raffles. i just dont like it. A'levels--boring. Pol here are not so fun as back in high school. they wont speak until u talk to them. i gotta do summin for my life, but i just dunno wut to do. is just so lack of summin which i still cant figure out wut the hell is that. i so miss raffles' chair. every one have got thier own roller chair v soft cotton and adjustable height. den v will be playing v the chair, rolling here n there around the class room. =P xpecially me! owh gosh, i miss some of my ex-classmates too. xpecially when we are playing ping pong. seeing how the ball flys, n claims that v are playing football n golf v a ping pong ball. lol shall stop bout it. face the fact, yuantengs in sunway now. having class later. owh yea, i have 2 hours break almost every day! -.- wondering wut the hell im supposed to do with that super long break.
misses xin yu so much lately, she brought laughters into my secondary life.
misses sumin, she brought meaning into my life, she made me think lotsa meaningful thgs.
misses pek yee while she sits behind me during exam period, she is the fren who would really help, shes not selfish. =)
misses woon yee lilian n pei yen, they made my life more contented.
misses all my frens who brought lotsa crapsssss into my life too. =P

i ate salted chicken.

i want asam laksa.
-next time.

i want mi sedap,
-i have it immediately with a mata kerbau.






smile because i love seeing you smiling. =D

studies investment.

dear world,

form july 2008 onwards, yuanteng will be putting studies as her 1st priority.
family, boyfriends, girlfriends, relationships, friendships... will come to u all later. i cant effort to lose my results once more. And one party relationship is somehow hurtful. so disappointing.. I believe studies wont disappoint me. so books, here i come, im ready to invest on you. =D i'd never study since SPM over. lol


and ofcos, i wont stop blogging. but im not going to blog everyday or constantly. or to say i never. i'll come back whenever inspiration hits me (= im not those pro blogger who blog every single day just to impress their reader with very bombastic english, lol or rather to admit my english sucks. lol but if ur one of those.. i can tell u'd missed the feeling of blogging. d=

tomorrow never comes.

if i knew it would be the last time that i'd see you fall asleep,
i would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the lord your soul to keep.

if i knew it would be the last time that i'd see you walk out the door,
i would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.

if i knew it would be the last time that i'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
i would tape each words and action, and play them back throughout my days.

if i knew it would be the last time, i would spare an extra minute or two,
to stop and say "i love you" instead of assuming you know i do.

so just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all i get,
i'd like to say how much i love you, and i hope we will never forget.

tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

so if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?

for if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day
that you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

so hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,
that you love them very much, and you'll always hold them dear.





p.s. i you love thissssssssssssssssssssssssss much. not just 'this' much. =)

the sushi day.

today, the sushi day.
lilian, woon yee, ying girl n i made sushi together. =)
the sushi was nice. very of that kind. but the look. lol the biggest problem after all. the rice is too sticky that they stick everywhere n mess up the whole thing. lilian:'y ur sushi got pimples all over?' -.-
the hand roll, lol. i just couldent stop laughing. is too fat to fit in the seaweed that i goota really them squeezsssss in. i promise, i will make more.
worse part, i cut my hand while cutting the corn, in order to cut them into biji biji from the whole damn thing.
those who ate it, appreciate it please. or may be u tasted my blood! jk la, not that serious! i'd plaster-ed over it before i start making sushi. no worries. =)

i wannnnnt a camera very badly, and im seriously broke!!! but i really NEED to snap picturessss of my everyday life!
seeeee... i dont get to snap my sushi today! =( n my ipoh backpacking too! the badminton day three. the flower i received four. and -.- left 4 days of class in raffles. i feel like snapinggggg pictures with them. T.T
i just need a very simple digital camera. may be a albumT.lol. anyone please?
i dont mind having an advance bday prezzie(omg,still far.) oran advance christmas prez(nearer =)? okie ignore, im dreaming. ask mummy for it tomoro. =)

im tired, tomoro gotta wake up early.
good night world.

the day after backpacking.

hi world, the backpackers are back!
for more information please log on to this site. thanks huisin. =)


today yuanteng receives flower. =) please be note that is a flower. not a bouque flowers! -.- okie. im satisfied. is still flower. a bunga raya btw. samor plucked it from road side. and i left it in your car. wut is this. -.-
i went for badminton with mr.potato n end up he became smashed potato. fun tho. we sweat-ed. =)

im dedicating a 4 liner poem to smashed potato.

i have a potato.
i keep smashing him.
end up a smashed potato.
i love smashed potato. =)


omg. assignments!

ipoh mari.

in an hour time im going ipoh with ex-rangers! =D

"is very important mission man, do you have ipoh's map?" -quoted by our dear miss Tanweiwei. ^^

see you soon girls! =)

yuanteng ignoring the rest of the world.

thinking a lot about the future. not just about studies. owh yea btw did blog bout im quitting my current course? will be taking A'lvs or MUFY at sunway. back to topic. thinking a lot bout life.. i'd changed, yea is normal. things happened and things changed. so do people. and me. while browsing my old personel note book, those very normal personal note book which everyone carry with them whenever they go. few papers fell down, i eventually take n read.. lotsa wordings. colourful wordings. cant believe that i act write alot of my thoughts bout life past few years, during secondary years. i used to have those habit of writing out my feelings n thoughts. sad ones n ofcos some happy ones. at least i know my feeling and thoughts about my life.
but now, i just pass my everyday lidat everyday without remember it. such a waste.i'd waste alot of the memories, a lot of the scenery. i shall start to be greatful again. sometimes i dont know whether is summin good to be clear n think a lot or is summin lame to do so. ppl use to say im over analysed. well, guess nothing really wrong nor right. but somehow, i love being that way more, its so meaningless to live like how im living now. About my relation life, i am sorry i have to say i cant see the future yet. wondering am i worrying too much about everything or he is being a little too un-sensitive. is like we dont care, n im getting very boring already, we are damn messy, many things not done yet, n yet, none of us taking the effort to do it.
n now im lazy bout everything, hate it when i start envying ppl's relationship, n felt so helpless bout mine. im so negative now, i shall stop.

good days.

everyday is a niceeeee day.

1st i get to update myself with my dear sue ann n my TF - mrTTY.

next i got a new nike golden casual shoe.

and den i enjoyed the whole day todayyyyy! yay!





'after typing this i enjoyed even more'-quoted by someone.

pain. pain. pain.

Oh, my aching back! No, really. My lower back has been bothering me since i woke up in the morning! lower back is F-ing pain!! it hurts like shitt, i gotta bend my back bone in order to feel better, but whenever i staraighten it, hell.. its killing man! many of my frens had told me my standing posture was wrong all the time, i hunch my back all the time whenerevn im standing.. n i ignored all of them n continue my fav. standing posture. n now.. AIKS.. see wut happened! but im only 18. im only 18 this year, why do this old woman sickness come to me already! =( wtF. i can feel extra pain whenever i sneeze. killinggg! theres a saying said that we sneeze whever ppl is missing us ryt?so people, pls stop missing me. ur killing me instead!

there are still nice people in this world.

i realised in this past 18years, 3 months and a few days. i really did met whole loads of nice people. i meet nice girlfriends, nice boyfriend, nice auntiess, nice uncle, even nice strangers. i really like the feeling talking to a nice stranger, can be in the bookshop or the nice casher fella . when they smile n give extra infomation even u purchasing little stuff that they cant make big money. they really make me believe that a simple smile could make difference, and i smile! they really make me think that do i really deserve this kinda treats. but everyone seems to treat me very well or at least better than how i treat them. especially my friends. they are kind.. really kind of that type. i cherrish them, but sometimes i just tend to forget to treat them better. as in like.. i really hope to cheer them up, or make thier day better.

i stay in ampang with one of my friend(woon yee) once a week. i really bring lotsa problemss to her tho. she uses at least 15mins to wake me in the morning(im a heavy sleeper). she then fetch me to skul. yea, although she have class n we are going to the same destination. but i felt so thankful. when my class ends late, she would go pavillion or klcc to spent some time there just for the sake of waiting for me. than after my class ends, she come back to skul to pick me up with...donutsss. and sushiii! see?? but, she didnt get any benefits fom me tho.
she too borrows her technical pen to me (i didnt buy cos i might stop this course u see). it simply cost bout rm80++ for few pens. not every one will lend it to others simply just lidat u noe. we will always think like, will they spoilt it or misplace it right? i felt so lucky n thankful, meantime i dunno wut else can i do for her to show my apprciation. but im not only saying that i appreciate her. i really do.

and to other nice peoples, i do notice you all too. u all really bring difference to my life. =) especially to those who talk to me when im lost. somehow i feel, sad is just a little tiny thing compared to lost. haha so sometimes i ask my frens, do u regret to know me(seriously).. dont freak out.. i jus feel im a lousy friend sometimes..

i am smarter.

hehhhhh!! u noe wut??
I AM PROUD OF MY SELF.
i learnt to use photoshop!! illustrator!! and powerpoint!!

mummy day.

mothers day post.

yuanteng is a lucky girl.
yuanteng receives at least 3times more love than all of you.
yuanteng shares love at least 3 times more than all of you.
why? why???
because yuanteng have three mummyssS.
okie let me intro them to u, sorry dont expect for photos. is not in this computer.

my mummy, the one who i stay in her womb for 10 months before i came to this world.
she have got a vey very big appetite.(i got her gene i think.lol) for example.
me:*card*happy mothers day mummy, nah.. here a card for u.
mummy:*throws into my room* *-.-*

me:*flowers*happy mothers day mummy, here is ur flowers.
mummy: nice. thx. *smiles* but where is my present?
me: huh? present??
mummy:the flower is just the watak sampingan right? c'mon... where is the main character?
me:*-.-*

me:*TAG HEUER* happy mothers day. this is the present for u on mothers day!
mummy:nice watch.. this is a mothers day gift! *smile widely*


this is how big her appetite is! =)

mummy number two. she babysits yuanteng when she is a baby!
bought her a rose on mothers day. owh yea, she'd passed away when im in the age of 14due to lung cancer(cant really eleborate storiessss here, childhood story.. long one.) i wasnt free on mothers day, so i asked my 2nd sister to pass my rose to my 2nd mummy n apologise for my absence since she is visiting the fairy park. n she came back v my rose. i was like 0.o?? she said: written there. 'fairy park visiting hours.. 8-5pm.' lol fairy park oso got visiting hours? lol
aiks, kinda guilty that i cant even visit her even i can dive now. =(

mummy number three. my god mommy. not really close of tat kind, but still one of my mummy. =) hopefuly, we will be close soon. bought her a small gift on mothers day. n u noe wut??? damn paiseh, i came back v a big ang pow. its mothers day u noe. =( haha

file close!

*forgive.. forgive*
okie, they are forgiven.
ignore those bitches! life being sweet again. =)


in this incident, the best comfort i got its from my dad! lol he said...
"just ignore them , dont place some shit in front of you and smell it." how true it is. =) im glad i ve such family members telling me to do the right thing and feel better. unlike some mother telling their daughter how to hate others. awww, so sad.

the most unwelcome guest ever.

i m so fucking angry on those really horrible people talking something bad bout me behind of me. can u even believe she actually emailed MY sister n complained about me and thinking that this can hide it from me? so farrrnniieee!!!! i don't know how the fuck she claimed that i STEAL her fucking stuff while she was staying in MY place. funny ryt? believe it or not. And she actually claimed that i FORCE her mum to give me her 25pound pajama. can u actually believe that she used the particular word-FORCE. if she wants back, i WOULD and i WILL mail her by air. fucking chicken, y not tel me u want it back infront of me, instead of complained to my sis. besides, she actually ACCUSED me that i stop my elder sister not to give her back her bloody RM100. arrrrgghhh.... RM100. RM100 its not like 100k u see! see now, that bloody RM100 make our relation worse. satisfied? fucking pissed man!!! i am pretty good enough that i did not complain a little about her while she stays here, except my family, no one else can imagine how troublesome was she. she is those type that ushe stay in ppl house n complians about everythg in my house. for example, she complains bout MY toilet, MY hair dryer, MY room... uh... is like MY entire house. n how nice my parents is to ask me to keep my mouth shut n bear with them because they are the guest!! please be note that im not making thgs worse, im just wanna declare n clarify about everything she ACCUSED. owh wait.. worse part, she act so sweet and good and kind n cute infront of me. hse said that she mis mee sooooo much n stuff like that. i really hate that! thats seriously disgusting. owh yea, her mum left her toothbrush here... thank god she didnt accuse that i steal their toothbrush. lol i'd really wanna cut n paste her email n post it into my blog to show all of u. but somehow unlike her, im not those ppl who make complains n taking summin bad about ppl! n i really duwan to make things worse, so that we wont be embarrass when we meet the next time.
owh well, kinda pity of her actually, may be she was brought up that way. neway, its passed, just hope she wont be staying in my house the next time she visits.

***********

life been so sweet lately. =)

lifeless life.

i'm lonely,

i'm tired,

i'm sad,

i'm happy,

i'm lucky,

i'm unlucky;

i'm million different things everyday of the week.
but i suppose OK is one of them.

i'm alive.

where i'd been?? well, tats not really the point. im still alive sue ann! =)
class started last week. owh yea, did i mention im doing interior design at raffles. i dunno how to answer when ppl ask me hows class or summin. wut do u mean by how? lol welll.. not really enjoying class.. may be is just the start. imagine... drawing n sketching lines, planes, points.etc. stuff lidat. worse part is i bearly able to comunicate v my classmates. or to say designers. may be its just our sense of fasion are different. no matter wut, i will finish this sem, n decide later whether to change course or not. thinking of environmental psychology and quantity suveying. believe me, end up i'll be doing sem or A'levels. im tired of all this. life been so miserable tho.


P.s i love you ia a good book. but my cousin says the movie are freaking boring. wutever. i'll still watch no matter wut. X)

too often, where we need water, we find guns instead.

laugh. can?











i jus need a pic of a smily. n i found this instead. it made me laugh like shyt!

thursday v sueann.

life's awesome. god treats me so well! thanks!
frens are currently my soure of happiness. lol
met sueann today.
she enjoys her life lately.
she is rocking her own life man. great!
she claims herself a bitch n colour her nails v some bitchy pink in my room! lol
envious v her life. so many GENEROUS ppl around her larrrr! 8)

i still have friends.

life is getting better!
but monitor sucks! screen is still jumping!

somewhere in the middle.

my journey to adulthood,
my youth to kiss away.

But as we go we find ourselves
at a truly awkward stage.
We're partial, unripe, sketchy and crude
at this tender age.

we are old enough to make a choice
yet still young in many ways.
Too young to pack our bags n go,
too old to want to stay.

Young enuf for fun and games
too old for carefree lives.
Young enuf for hopes n dreams,
yet for reality we strive.

Old enuf for heartfelt pain,
too young to find the cure.
Too old for the childish ways of past,
too young to be mature.

Old enuf to fall in love
and give our heart away.
But, still too young to understand
just why we feel this way.

We're trusted, loyal, proud and true
yet scolded,sneered and scorned.
between the role of adult and child,
we are somewhere torn.

like an incomplete work of art,
we're awkward, unsure, half-baked.
But be patient please
for we're on our way
to becoming something great.

past, present, & super future.

past!

• enrolled for advance diploma for interior design at raffles design school! uh.. more to deferred actually. lol
  
  
• watched:
  1.ah long- not very interesting, just typical comedy.
  2.spiderwick- awesome. worth watching. love it tho.
  3.vantage point- so. so. not recomanded.
  4.horton hears a who- can i say not worth watching? lol
  5.27 dresses- sweet!
  
  
• owh.. did i mention about my new tooth brush? finally i have a new tooth brush. felt very fresh, made me love brushing my teeth tho. i ve the very nice feeling =) been using the hotel toothbrush one for like few weeks already. thanks dude2!
  
  
• love the combination of honeystar and cold milo(not ice milo!). lol not match tho. but its tasty. go ve a try!

present!
awww.. rainy days week. love it much tho. sometiems i ve the rainy feeling. only when its raining not that heavily n when im alone. dont get me wrong, its not lonely, its not emo too. its the opposite of emo? yeah. cant find a suitable words for that particular feeling. just replace it with rainy feelings k. thats the time i felt, lifes really awesome n meaningful even without a boyfriend! xP. no offence yea. and i always happen to open my window to.. to ve the feeling? n listen to the tiny droplets falls on the ground? wutever. but its very cooling. on the meantime, mind and soul are set to free. den they headed to the place where they belong to but they are not allow to be there to most of the time - the heart! as we know, reality dont usually follow our heart. no matter what, the sun still shines after the rain. =)

super future!
lee yuan teng the successful interior designer.

this too shall pass.

everyone around me don't seem to be happy nowadays. i don't mean sad. but just not very happy like usual. so m i. i always want things a certain way, when i know they cant be so. i cant live with my own, like now. i can simply go crazy. and yeah, i get frustrated n discourage so easily. i need support n encouragement all the time. i need someone to talk to. i need to express my anger or happiness out. joking around n bull shitting around is how i deal with things. friends always make things easier for me. i need to go school badly. but i knew, i wont be enjoying the 1st few weeks. without any friends y'know. i know i cant do it. friends ain't a problem for me. =)

i'm sorry for all the people,
to whom i'd throw all my anger on.
I'm sorry for all the times i lost my temper,
and for the times when i was really rude.

today was suppose to buy my red gap bag remember? went all the way to gardens. when in gap happily. show the fella the catalog. bloody hell..
'sorry, v r having sales now so v ve only old stock for now. this bag is not out yet. come again tomoro. =)'
'-.-'
nvm.. so was walking around. i just want summin badly, anythg. i wanna carry bags back!!! went in animal. saw a very pretty jacket. preparing to buy it.
'can i ve a size 8 pls?'
'*check check check.* sorry miss. size 12 can ar?'
'*-.-!! another bloody shit.* uh.... uh....'
'our pyramid branch ve size 8 for this.'
'thx... =D'
.
.
.
*pyramid*
BOUGHT! =D
damn satisfying.
.
.
.
*back home*
'*show sis* nice?'
'nice...=D suit you!'
'izzit? =D'
'you ANIMAL MAR!'


***
tomoro driving test!!!! 6.30AM!! 6.30AM!!
yuanteng go sleep, go sleep now.

god bless me.

dear god,

thank you for granting me such a satisfying pretty good result. i seriously appreciate it n happy bout it a lot. =) n i know i deserve that.
but why the hell heaven that all my fren's results are better den mine? lol. u disappoint me y'noe. nvm. i forgive u k? only for this time. gimme a better-than-others-result in my whole college life k? thank you pls be note that i do love you.

with love,
yuanteng.






hope thunder dont strike me. =0
sorry god. im apologizing god.
im just joking. i noe ur kind. =)
*pheeew.. i apologized n i shall be saved. =D*

tomoro? so what.

tel me why am i not nervous about my spm results. at all.

jogoya.

im on my holiday again. i mean, im not working any longer. so today was like sooo boring in the morning. so i decided to go out with a few frens, went to starhill, yea, the YTL classy place. didnt go there for a very long time, not classy enuf to be there? may be. lol. yadayada. v than went for the japs buffet. JOGOYA. altho the name of the restaurant is like so so? uh, sucks. butttt!!! OMG is a super nice place, is like heaven? yea, almost. so any sushi freak out there? a must visit place. i purposely didnt eat breakfast for tat! XP ate quite a lot, more than i expaected, hehe. wallap all expensive one ofcos, abalone soup, escargots, n shell like pearl thingy,scallops, sushis, whole big fish. really enjoy man. last but not least, desserts. what oso wallap. lol puddings, tarts, ice creams, cakes. lol i like the place a lot! =) the best thing is... lol. fren treats me! =) save my 100bucks! XP after everythg wanna wipe my hands v the wet tissue, saw this thg. ;p

JO-a supreme place.
GO-the place live by the king.
YA-a shop.
okie fine, the name not nice. not suit. wut a place live by the king n den a shop. lol

den i saw this phrase. i like.
'JOGOYA means a shop which full of culture should be visited by the high class people. '
it simply saying im a high class people indirectly. =) Wow.


aAiKS.. did not snap any picture. well, i noe i'll visit again. wanna be higher class people. lolol

happy birthday sammy.

well done malaysian. i really starting to love malaysia n ofcos malaysian after the general election. guess pak lah shall wake! but.. ishhh.. y keadilan take over selangor, i would rather choose for DAP-the red rocket with a blue round circle!! like penang. =) well, luckily BN still wins over all. else, i'll ve no government? sounds great ryt? but i dont think tats fun y'know. v shall let BN a chance to improve.

suppose to help up today in MCA's office, but y'noe cant really help up, underage. so, instead of sitting down there waiting for the results, me n a few working frens went foot massage. teehee.. after the session, the fella massage my shoulder. it felt relief. but! bout evening, i felt the pain on my shoulder. hell still pain now. -.- after the foot massage went 1U to watch movie, fatal move. those typical dai lou movie. gangsters v guns n stick fighting, n soon blood everywhere. not very interesting. ending part not very nice too. but i do like the part when the wife told the husband why she harm him. the only one percent of love story n the whole movie. lol this is the 1st 18PL movie i watched after 18. im a legal audience for a 18PL movie. =D n i wanna be the one buying tickets, haha. the fella selling tickets tels me tat its a 18PL movie (as i expected). i went:'im 18. im 18 last month! =D' she smiles at me. guess she went thru this too? lol









saw this bag in GAP. love it tho. will be getting one next week! red one. yay!
n yea world woman's day i suppose. so have a happy day woman! =D

i will learn to cook...

buy me this. i WILL learn to cook... yea cook

















... eggs.

coincidentally march.

okay, i would really like to update everything.

day1: a great start.
what a satisfying day. =) guess wut?
well well well.. for the very very very 1st time in my life...
yuanteng went sailing! yea. sailing.guess u are like me, once heard sailing, wild imagination start popping out. lol nope.








uh.. yayaya.. summin lidat!
went with sis's frens, guess it ll be even fun if my frens are around. its still fun for a 1st timer neway. n i did learnt how a sail function.. PHYSICS! i love. =)
unfrotunatelly, theres so much colourfull stringsss... n the english sail term for me to remember.
cant do it. hope i can go v sis again next time. =) hehe, saw many not-so-good-looking-guy buttttt... helll.. love their bodies wei! well toned. fit! n tanned girls v extreamly nice legs! =)
moved forward. after the race, we were like lying on the sail n let it float back. =) tats the most enjoying part of all. =) there are 5 person on the boat, 2 couples. n ME! odd ryt?
they are enjoying their lovey dovey life. well, its okie,=) im too imaginating my prince were enjoying a spectacular sunset & some delicious wine v me! =)


Day2: isnt tat bad.
which is yesterday.
went working like usual. watch drama like for whole day.
my working place is like so damn boring tat i ve to watch drama to let the time pass.but hell.. it still felt like everythg move slower den usual, specially the pointer of the clock! usually it moves tic tac tic tac. n ytd is moves tic..... tac..... tic.... tac..... -.-
the rest of the day. forgottan lar.
owh yea, i remember shoulder is like terribly aching.
cant sleep well ytd nyt.
i duwan to be an old lady!!!!
was like tossing around on the bed n flipping pillow every few mins.
got mosquitos bites! hmmp! stupid violin bugs!
den when i wake up, i saw this fat violin bug flying happily its way home v a very satisfied look! bloody hell..
i knew tat fella was filled v my fresh blood... n yea.
"SMACK!"
RIP.
=D


day3:today.(monday)
well, summin really goes very wrong now. may be hormones is fooling v me.
i dunno why im starting feeling a little down from time to time.
n a little grumpy. a little impatient. for example, while having dinner just now, my std one cousin came kacao. i tel her to go out of my line of vision. lol. she is just std one. i wonder why.
take note that im always a happy person.
little thgs is able to make me happy already. i remember once in class, i wanna make myself to finish my water in skul, i start fantasize my plain water are sweet n eventually i drank v a smile n start telling frens around me tat my water is sweet den usual. i can really pretend n act like drinking summin really nice. lol there goes my bottle ll be empty by the bell rings. n yea, the feeling... SATISFACTION. =) see.. i told ya, small thgs really do matter! =) i too love being able to go in a shop n find summin lovable. n most importantly, i ve the money to buy it. den i will be smiling the whole night. *yay! i ve a new shoe/bag/cloths!!!* OMG.. SATISFACTION again! xD but but but. sometimes, well at least not all the time, i dun understand y the hell i ve to keep pointing on someone important's weak point n get mad n unhappy over it. why? i shall change i guess. i have to.







finish my coffee.
done some smoke.
nothing more to blog!
alryt, satisfy!
bye dude!
okieokie. im lying. xP
i hate smokers.
i prefer milo over coffee!

i saw an orang-utan.

lazy. yea, me.
ll update tomoro.
really lar...



title?
just ignore,
i ve an orang-utan picture on the wall of my room. =)
while thinking for a title,
i turn my head around.
n this fella pop out.
(tis is not the actual pic.)

God do hear me!

god do hear me!
god do hear me!
god do hear me!
god do hear me!


after posting the previous post.
tee hee.
this song 'dont worry, be happy' from bob marly played.
its so so so coincident y'know!!
thousands of songs, but...

dun worry be happy
every life ve thier own trouble
when u worry you make it double.
don worry be happy.
bla bla bla~
I give you my phone number
when you worry call me Ill make you happy (irememberthisthemost. lol.)
em>dont worry be happy.
when ur worried ur face ll frown
And that will bring everybody down
so dont worry be happy. (cant remember the rest. lol)

Dear God.

dear god,

why u send a so so not supportive mummy to me from above?
its really torturing.
my job is to make her happy!
tats all bout my life?
its so unfair!
why the hell do i deserve this kinda treatment?
she made every dicision just to make herself happy!
wut a lifeless life i ve!
thank god im staying in KL on april!
at least a have a place to breath!

with love,
yuanteng.

that's the way!

live with intention.

walk to the edge.

listen hard.

practice well.

play with abandon.

laugh hard.

choose with no regret.

continue to learn.

appreciate my friend.

do what yuanteng loves.

live like there is no tomoro!

broken promises.

promises are made to be broken.
a promise is just a comfort for a fool.

yuanteng hates promises.
yes, she do.

they made yuanteng smile.

OMG OMG OMG.
i didnt log in to my friendster account like for few months.
n i saw so so so many b'day wishes. soooo damn happy. the feeling of reading 30plus bday wishes one shot really damn superb shiok wei!
tot all my frens forgot me already =(
my bad my bad!
i now believe friendship forever. =D
thanks lot my dear frens.
thx for those wishes form...
regent.
jady.
hengkian.
zheng zhong.
weekent.
wei chong.
mei fong.
zhong lun.
kai yin.
weekiat.
adrian.
jenny.
xiu hui.
sumin.
some juniorsss!
n mores, i cant remember all now.

thanks thanks thanks a whole bunchhhie!
im really really happy!

n owh yea, thx for those hu wishes me thru voice call n also sms-es!
i appreciate it much.

n ofcos the world smallest medicine b'day card. XP

im 18.

yea, 5 days back.
so 18 years n 5 days old? =)
ll update photos n tel u guys how i celebrated my 18th bday in bukit tinggi,bentung with family! lol


earlier on im working v MCA for the election stuff.
for now i'd quit the job due to 15hrs a day in smoky working areas.
n currently im working in giant bkt tinggi just for 5 days,
3 more days to go.
then i'll ve time for my blog.
n i'll ve money to shop! =D yay!

valentine's day.
nth special happen,
no valentine yet, tat y.
but i noe i'll ve one someday,
n then i'll ve lotsa lotsa valentine's day to celebrate! =D

stupid brainless uneducated lady!

okie third post today. hu cares? my blog!
keep quiet n read!
i really need to released all my hates, terror, stress this few days!

fuck.
i hate a gal in my working area.
n hell, she is nobody!!
tat stupid gal thinks tat she is so damn great tat she is my boss' fren!
okie my boss is a very well known dato. im sure whoever staying klang will know him.
he gotta meet reporters avday! may be u can see me in the newspaper too! jk!

okie back to topic.
she loves to brag, she said a worker from AEON makes her mad so she emailed to AEON management to make some complains. -.- very great izit?
she told everyone around her v a super high tone n a really irritating expression!
i feel like slapping her face man!
she too said :"they duwan take action i email chim chim english let them tao hin hin again!" with super chinese slang.
im like "pls show me some ur chim english? stupid shallow lady! even AEON cleaner can speak better den u man"
no offence. im too from a chinese background family n chinese educated!
but hell, at least v noe to agak agak! v show off whenever v have thgs to show.
unlike her, make me laugh only!
stupid clown! sry, clown is better!
stupid brainless uneducated lady!
yea, this one suits her best!

smoking boss!

n yea, the people in my working area shorten my life by smoking!
even my boss, the one i spent most of my time with!
damn it!

12.00am!

i really starting unliking my work.
i start work like 9am n reach home at 12am!
for me, working late is okie,
worse is i gotta attend functions, i gotta sit at de corner alone!
hardly even talk.
damn it.

for now i still dunno how much is my salary!
if i didnt get rm3k for a month.
fuck!

mum wants me to continue since i'd started!
fine, just one more month! XP
i promise i'll stop after feb.

double boring stuff.

another overdue post.
went piano class on friday.
i decided to continue my practical only.
theory is boring. n im not really into music line.
i love piano class not just b'cos i like piano.
i love my teacher. v spent time laughing n shouting in the class most of the time.
for now, she still need to use a cane while teaching me!! -.-


teacher.. look here!!
snapppp!


when she saw...
'i tel u, u better delete it!!!'
'dun let me catch u posting up in ur bloggg!!!' loll
den i show the same face to her!




***
browsing back my old baby album.
let me show u my 1st boyfriend!
he holds my hand, so tightly. dun b'lif? let u see one more clearer one!




saw?







lol my 1st dopey-look boyfriend. may be he is the top student now? hu noes!

yit ge chap lak ho.

well,
if u still remember
this post.
haha. yea this the day my grandma suppost to go for medical check up.
so i woke at 9am. 9AM! 9AM!
i accompanied her again! =)
went to the elderly department.


<<<-this is wut i expect to see.
sadly. instead of this.

<<<- i saw this.

heart eventually went so sour.saw many old man/woman went hospital themself.
some on the wheelchair.some using a tongkat, shivering.
i dun see smile n happiness on their face.thinking whether their children dump them or wut.im afraid i'll come up v excuses n neglect my parents next time.im even afraid my children ll dump me into the old folks home.
nobody feeds me. shevering when walking. back ache. no bed to sleep on.
no one to talk to. saliva all around.uh.. i'll wish to die earlier den.


i felt the guilt when flashing back,
how i mistreat my parents n grandma before.
when im happy, i treat them well.
when im not.
i jus reply them obnoxiously.
or i'll jus ignore. -.-


i dunno why i just cant help up with the talk back thg.
It's like spontaniously comes out from my mouth, without thinking.
n few minutes later. gosh.
GUILT.
and I wish to apologize sometimes
But... my pride... =(



okie. for now. those were no longer important.
i'll be a better person. =)
i'll be good to everyone. uh.. those who worth to be treated!



went for game plan today with my TF
-Thoughtful Fren
-Trouble Fren
-Terrible Fren! =D
he claims himself a thoughtful fren. wutever.
he accompanied me for interview in jusco.
i'll be a promoter soon! =(
uh. nvm. RM5 per hour. okie la.
back to game plan.
its a very very nice movie!
altho its predictable,
but still worth watching.
its touching. im afraid i'll weep tho! XD


till den.
good night. =)

pink

is creativity exhaustible?
is happiness exhaustible?
is dreams exhaustible?































im worried.

chu mei fong.

chu mei fong is a great listener!
she gave me advises n support that i needed badly.
thanks a whole bunch my fren!

sunday!

visit me people!
@klcc edu fair tomoro.
will be super boring distributing brochures n flyers!

im more to this type.

im not the rock type.
believe me, u ll love it too.
the gift-jim brickman

here u are the lyrics!
winter snow is falling down
children laughing all around
lights are turning on
like a fairy tale come true

sitting by the fire we made
you're the answer when i prayed
i would find someone
and baby i found you

all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift

watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still

but the colors fade away
and the years will make us grey
but baby in my eyes
you'll still be beautiful

all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift

(instrumental)

all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
i can't find the words to say
that i'm thankful every day
for the gift


dun doubt.
im not in love currently.
i just find its nice. =)

tis is colourful, but i noe its ugly.
believe me, i do ve sense of colour.
but ppl, blogger sux.
i dun ve the colorbox on my dashboard -.-
so, im doing myself slowly v the html thingy!

tears.

im thinking what i actually want in my life.
achivements? ofcos.
happiness? i want it too.
money? yes!!!
sometime i overlook money matter.
it makes me sad the most.
financial problems suX.
i havent been through such big amount before.
RM13,000. i really duwan dump it in raffles.
but i guess im not happy studying there.
i dun ve much frens there.
not to look down on my classmates,
but i really dun ve competitors there.
can i improve?
may be its jus the starting part now.
its really a tough life now.
i hardly even smile.
not to mention laugh.

okie. let say i quit.
where im gonna head to?
KBU? not really a nice skul.
not even a good skul either.

thinking of the past.
pek yee: wan ting, life sucks. =(
me: life is meaningful wei! *smile real wide*


will i be happy like the past?
im thinking too much recently.
please help.


fuck.

raffles day two.

im in skul now.
my 2nd class. 2nd day.
every class end 1 hour earlier??
av college oso lidat?

the lecturers are great...
but, c'mon, 5 students in my class huh? =.=
damn boringgg. still hasitating whether to stay or leave.
im really happy n glad that,
when i tel mum tat i might leave,
she actually didnt mumble at me.
what a great mum i ve!
but is me myself hu act thinks too much.
even the lecture said im over analyse!! -.-
my skul is a quiet quiet plus quite place.
v only ve 3 pc in the-2-rows-of-books-library, -.-
u might think tat im lucky ve a chance to use one out of the three.
but.. lol. when i came in, no one is using surprisingly.
wut a skul.
im still hasitating where to go.
i wan the best skul for ID.
anyone plss?


found a very very suitable photo in this unknown com,
but.. blogger suX!
keep failed loading! -.-

明天。

我害怕进入一个陌生的环境里。
这不像你们所认识的我，对吧。
心情很沉重。找不到支点。




will be staying near jln ampang from tomoro on.
please visit me people.
only will be back on weekends.

Raffles.

Orientation day.
it was quite disappointing.
i see all my frens went taylors, sunway.. those big skul they ve many nice activities. is like so happening. n sue ann said.. 'luxurious!'
-.- im like, y my skul so dull one, i dun ve tall tall buildings.
dun ve big big hall. dun ve lotsa lotsa nice frens to meet to!
n my class is like.. less den 20 student? -.-
at 1st, when the fella said i ll ve small class. den i tot.. small class?
good wut.. can concerntrate better! =)
wut the hell, its soooo damn boring okay!
no any activities, can i survive?
the worse thg is i felt pain in my heart after paying so damn expensive fees n get such quality skul.
but on a brighter side.. =)
the lecturers was great.
thats the important one ryt? =D
i will try very hard to love my skul!

***

sorry my day is not colourful enuf today.

today, im not so nice.

so people, make me happy pls.



to be honest, today isnt a bright day.
kinda moody..
damn frustrated.
love isnt always a nice game to play.
felt like talking to my close fren.
but they were not free. -.-
they ve thier own love stories too.

today is my 1sy day of work.
yettt.. my last day of work.
cos i decided to study tomoro!
my 1st day of clsss. jus hope avthg ll be fine.
hope i ll get to noe new frens there.
obviously there wont be any kwang hua graduates exp me n wy.

working was alryt overall.
but they smoke! -.-
i duwan to die so eraly.




pls god.
i duwan my mood to swing.
pls dun destroy my day tomoro.
i wanna ve a great college life.
thanks lot!
this post is very black. -.-
my next post will be colourful.
i promise.