yuanteng ignoring the rest of the world.

thinking a lot about the future. not just about studies. owh yea btw did blog bout im quitting my current course? will be taking A'lvs or MUFY at sunway. back to topic. thinking a lot bout life.. i'd changed, yea is normal. things happened and things changed. so do people. and me. while browsing my old personel note book, those very normal personal note book which everyone carry with them whenever they go. few papers fell down, i eventually take n read.. lotsa wordings. colourful wordings. cant believe that i act write alot of my thoughts bout life past few years, during secondary years. i used to have those habit of writing out my feelings n thoughts. sad ones n ofcos some happy ones. at least i know my feeling and thoughts about my life.
but now, i just pass my everyday lidat everyday without remember it. such a waste.i'd waste alot of the memories, a lot of the scenery. i shall start to be greatful again. sometimes i dont know whether is summin good to be clear n think a lot or is summin lame to do so. ppl use to say im over analysed. well, guess nothing really wrong nor right. but somehow, i love being that way more, its so meaningless to live like how im living now. About my relation life, i am sorry i have to say i cant see the future yet. wondering am i worrying too much about everything or he is being a little too un-sensitive. is like we dont care, n im getting very boring already, we are damn messy, many things not done yet, n yet, none of us taking the effort to do it.
n now im lazy bout everything, hate it when i start envying ppl's relationship, n felt so helpless bout mine. im so negative now, i shall stop.