life's challenges.

today. not a very pleasant day, in fact.. sucky, i would say. beside the morning.
my day started out just like most other fridays. having class at 1030am morning, saw friends and said hello on my way in. things went smoothly.. accounts class.. so called "inter-college-fair".. den gasoline.. everything went close to perfect.

until the A-race started... i dunno how come n why. it just brought my mood downnnn... stupid race. stupid games. stupid team. stupid ppl. i just hate it. im sorry to be rude to my team mate. but yea, i wasn't enjoying. tat y. i didn't even get the chance to look at the clue paper. not to mention to solve it. to solve it or not is a different thing, but i didn't even get the chance touch it. they do it all by them self.. n order the rest to run here n there like some mad cows. worse still, run three wrong places.
may be i should join huisin's group when they offer before the race starts.


after the stupid race, i rushed back for my piano class. hope for the best. but unfortunately, i cant play my 2nd piece. not to mention the scales, oral, sight reading which i really suck at all. teacher said my 3rd piece not qualify to pass also. n i left one more month, 4 more classes before th exam. i really duwan to fail this time. i felt stressed n overwhelmed n it seriously affecting my physical and mental well-being. i really have no idea what to do with it.


after the whole bloody day, i went home finally.. expecting for some rest in order to continue life's challenges. Mum dearest, started her daily rants, n complainsS about her life n basically everything. don't get me wrong, i do love my mum, n she is a super mum i would say. but she is even stressed than everyone do. she is a business woman, a mum, a wife, a daughter, a sister... her role if her life is much more difficult than mine. n so she have to pour out all her dissatisfactions to someone. unfortunately, im the one, her daughter. i use to talk back when im young n think that thats not my responsibility to listen to all her rants n ruin my own day, n end up quarrels. but now, im 18, im no longer the little spoilt kid that acts like a queen. i understand her need as a normal human being, and so i decided to keep quiet and listen to mum dearest. keep quiet because i ve no better suggestions. listen in order to let her feel better. i hope wut im contributing now helps n make some positive changes in her life.


tears n smiles shall call it a day. i knew thing ain't that bad as how it appeared in my mind. but when all things come together at once. who can cope?
i know i shouldn't cry here n move forward. life's going on. but sometimes, i need arms to cry on. i need shelter to rest in. i need an ear to pour on. a pillar for me to hold on when im falling.


specially thanks to mr tan chong yee for being such a patient friend today. you're such a great listener. infact, listening is more than enuf.


stay strong yuanteng.Don’t let tension build up and ruin your. good work. Pace yourself throughout the day.