devirginized

yea. devirginize from club. lol as a 1st timer n a girl who dont fancy drinking n loud music.. i thought i will be bored there.
but end up, i decided to go because i duwan to stay at home alone on 15th november 2008, i knew i will think i alot, end up wetting my pillow(again), it was a special day.. its very torturing to spend ur special day alone.

surprisingly, i didnt really feel awkward when im inside the club. i tried to love the music.. n i loved! =D i tried to drink, n i drank.. but is just bacardi la..-.- i tried to dance, n i danced.. =) i just simply love the dance floor. i felt secured. i felt loved. im happy! i didnt knoe i can just forget about everythg that bothers me all day long just lidat. really enjoyed.

after clubbing, i had a bad headache. lol but is worth i guess! =D


today i found out something very wierd. i enjoy hugging a lot. owh my goodness!! i think im lack of love. lol

incident one: last friday during the feel the heat telematch. i represented the mummy for my group.. after wrapping me up n my group members actually should protect me from opponents throwing wet sponge to wet me. den hui sin actually hugged me n protected me from water splashing on me. i miss that feeing. (huisin, its okie im not lesbian or something, im still finding my prince charming. XP)

incident two: during clubbing, on the dance floor.. i was dancing v one of my random friend. i cant really describe how v dance, kinda hugging but not exactly. i just love the feeling. i think i should pick up dancing class! XD

incident three: i was a very "asianic" girl who dont like getting too close to freinds, especially guys. i dont use to hug or kiss someone when v meet or apart. but i dunno when this changed.. i automatically hug my friends when i making a move or v meet up. this is wierd. i want to be the asianic yuanteng larrr!