stupid brainless uneducated lady!

okie third post today. hu cares? my blog!
keep quiet n read!
i really need to released all my hates, terror, stress this few days!

fuck.
i hate a gal in my working area.
n hell, she is nobody!!
tat stupid gal thinks tat she is so damn great tat she is my boss' fren!
okie my boss is a very well known dato. im sure whoever staying klang will know him.
he gotta meet reporters avday! may be u can see me in the newspaper too! jk!

okie back to topic.
she loves to brag, she said a worker from AEON makes her mad so she emailed to AEON management to make some complains. -.- very great izit?
she told everyone around her v a super high tone n a really irritating expression!
i feel like slapping her face man!
she too said :"they duwan take action i email chim chim english let them tao hin hin again!" with super chinese slang.
im like "pls show me some ur chim english? stupid shallow lady! even AEON cleaner can speak better den u man"
no offence. im too from a chinese background family n chinese educated!
but hell, at least v noe to agak agak! v show off whenever v have thgs to show.
unlike her, make me laugh only!
stupid clown! sry, clown is better!
stupid brainless uneducated lady!
yea, this one suits her best!

smoking boss!

n yea, the people in my working area shorten my life by smoking!
even my boss, the one i spent most of my time with!
damn it!

12.00am!

i really starting unliking my work.
i start work like 9am n reach home at 12am!
for me, working late is okie,
worse is i gotta attend functions, i gotta sit at de corner alone!
hardly even talk.
damn it.

for now i still dunno how much is my salary!
if i didnt get rm3k for a month.
fuck!

mum wants me to continue since i'd started!
fine, just one more month! XP
i promise i'll stop after feb.

double boring stuff.

another overdue post.
went piano class on friday.
i decided to continue my practical only.
theory is boring. n im not really into music line.
i love piano class not just b'cos i like piano.
i love my teacher. v spent time laughing n shouting in the class most of the time.
for now, she still need to use a cane while teaching me!! -.-


teacher.. look here!!
snapppp!


when she saw...
'i tel u, u better delete it!!!'
'dun let me catch u posting up in ur bloggg!!!' loll
den i show the same face to her!




***
browsing back my old baby album.
let me show u my 1st boyfriend!
he holds my hand, so tightly. dun b'lif? let u see one more clearer one!




saw?







lol my 1st dopey-look boyfriend. may be he is the top student now? hu noes!

yit ge chap lak ho.

well,
if u still remember
this post.
haha. yea this the day my grandma suppost to go for medical check up.
so i woke at 9am. 9AM! 9AM!
i accompanied her again! =)
went to the elderly department.


<<<-this is wut i expect to see.
sadly. instead of this.

<<<- i saw this.

heart eventually went so sour.saw many old man/woman went hospital themself.
some on the wheelchair.some using a tongkat, shivering.
i dun see smile n happiness on their face.thinking whether their children dump them or wut.im afraid i'll come up v excuses n neglect my parents next time.im even afraid my children ll dump me into the old folks home.
nobody feeds me. shevering when walking. back ache. no bed to sleep on.
no one to talk to. saliva all around.uh.. i'll wish to die earlier den.


i felt the guilt when flashing back,
how i mistreat my parents n grandma before.
when im happy, i treat them well.
when im not.
i jus reply them obnoxiously.
or i'll jus ignore. -.-


i dunno why i just cant help up with the talk back thg.
It's like spontaniously comes out from my mouth, without thinking.
n few minutes later. gosh.
GUILT.
and I wish to apologize sometimes
But... my pride... =(



okie. for now. those were no longer important.
i'll be a better person. =)
i'll be good to everyone. uh.. those who worth to be treated!



went for game plan today with my TF
-Thoughtful Fren
-Trouble Fren
-Terrible Fren! =D
he claims himself a thoughtful fren. wutever.
he accompanied me for interview in jusco.
i'll be a promoter soon! =(
uh. nvm. RM5 per hour. okie la.
back to game plan.
its a very very nice movie!
altho its predictable,
but still worth watching.
its touching. im afraid i'll weep tho! XD


till den.
good night. =)

pink

is creativity exhaustible?
is happiness exhaustible?
is dreams exhaustible?































im worried.

chu mei fong.

chu mei fong is a great listener!
she gave me advises n support that i needed badly.
thanks a whole bunch my fren!

sunday!

visit me people!
@klcc edu fair tomoro.
will be super boring distributing brochures n flyers!

im more to this type.

im not the rock type.
believe me, u ll love it too.
the gift-jim brickman

here u are the lyrics!
winter snow is falling down
children laughing all around
lights are turning on
like a fairy tale come true

sitting by the fire we made
you're the answer when i prayed
i would find someone
and baby i found you

all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift

watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still

but the colors fade away
and the years will make us grey
but baby in my eyes
you'll still be beautiful

all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift

(instrumental)

all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
i can't find the words to say
that i'm thankful every day
for the gift


dun doubt.
im not in love currently.
i just find its nice. =)

tis is colourful, but i noe its ugly.
believe me, i do ve sense of colour.
but ppl, blogger sux.
i dun ve the colorbox on my dashboard -.-
so, im doing myself slowly v the html thingy!

tears.

im thinking what i actually want in my life.
achivements? ofcos.
happiness? i want it too.
money? yes!!!
sometime i overlook money matter.
it makes me sad the most.
financial problems suX.
i havent been through such big amount before.
RM13,000. i really duwan dump it in raffles.
but i guess im not happy studying there.
i dun ve much frens there.
not to look down on my classmates,
but i really dun ve competitors there.
can i improve?
may be its jus the starting part now.
its really a tough life now.
i hardly even smile.
not to mention laugh.

okie. let say i quit.
where im gonna head to?
KBU? not really a nice skul.
not even a good skul either.

thinking of the past.
pek yee: wan ting, life sucks. =(
me: life is meaningful wei! *smile real wide*


will i be happy like the past?
im thinking too much recently.
please help.


fuck.

raffles day two.

im in skul now.
my 2nd class. 2nd day.
every class end 1 hour earlier??
av college oso lidat?

the lecturers are great...
but, c'mon, 5 students in my class huh? =.=
damn boringgg. still hasitating whether to stay or leave.
im really happy n glad that,
when i tel mum tat i might leave,
she actually didnt mumble at me.
what a great mum i ve!
but is me myself hu act thinks too much.
even the lecture said im over analyse!! -.-
my skul is a quiet quiet plus quite place.
v only ve 3 pc in the-2-rows-of-books-library, -.-
u might think tat im lucky ve a chance to use one out of the three.
but.. lol. when i came in, no one is using surprisingly.
wut a skul.
im still hasitating where to go.
i wan the best skul for ID.
anyone plss?


found a very very suitable photo in this unknown com,
but.. blogger suX!
keep failed loading! -.-

明天。

我害怕进入一个陌生的环境里。
这不像你们所认识的我，对吧。
心情很沉重。找不到支点。




will be staying near jln ampang from tomoro on.
please visit me people.
only will be back on weekends.

Raffles.

Orientation day.
it was quite disappointing.
i see all my frens went taylors, sunway.. those big skul they ve many nice activities. is like so happening. n sue ann said.. 'luxurious!'
-.- im like, y my skul so dull one, i dun ve tall tall buildings.
dun ve big big hall. dun ve lotsa lotsa nice frens to meet to!
n my class is like.. less den 20 student? -.-
at 1st, when the fella said i ll ve small class. den i tot.. small class?
good wut.. can concerntrate better! =)
wut the hell, its soooo damn boring okay!
no any activities, can i survive?
the worse thg is i felt pain in my heart after paying so damn expensive fees n get such quality skul.
but on a brighter side.. =)
the lecturers was great.
thats the important one ryt? =D
i will try very hard to love my skul!

***

sorry my day is not colourful enuf today.

today, im not so nice.

so people, make me happy pls.



to be honest, today isnt a bright day.
kinda moody..
damn frustrated.
love isnt always a nice game to play.
felt like talking to my close fren.
but they were not free. -.-
they ve thier own love stories too.

today is my 1sy day of work.
yettt.. my last day of work.
cos i decided to study tomoro!
my 1st day of clsss. jus hope avthg ll be fine.
hope i ll get to noe new frens there.
obviously there wont be any kwang hua graduates exp me n wy.

working was alryt overall.
but they smoke! -.-
i duwan to die so eraly.




pls god.
i duwan my mood to swing.
pls dun destroy my day tomoro.
i wanna ve a great college life.
thanks lot!
this post is very black. -.-
my next post will be colourful.
i promise.