the last day of the year.

okie. i dun ve any specific new year resolution tis year.
i only want my self to balanced up avthg.
frenship. bg relationship. family. studies. activities. outings.
left out anythg?
well, this is not summin easy i knoe.
i jus gotta do my very best. =)

sorry ve no time to write more now. gotta go.
c ya babe on 2008! =)
happy the last year of the year!

friendship meant alot yet nothing to me.

while flipping the sasbadi SPM english workbook just now,
i saw this article with no title...
its all about friendship and it inspired me.
i use the whole afternoon to think bout all the frenship i'd made in my past 17 years!
i always think n say summin like
'friendship is the thg i cherish the most in my life.'
but when i think deeper.. im sorry all my frends.
'frens is jus the passer-by or a traveller in my life.
we are jus visiting each other's life. 'dont u think so?
last time i cried cos im transfering from kl to klang when im std 5.
den i cried again in form four cos my best fren transfered skul.
at the moment, i seriously felt the pain when i lost someone precious.
but so wut? i still hafta go on with my life whithout them.
n soon, i get to noe new frens, another relationship bonded.
n it gone agian when v separates. it build n gone n build n gone jus lidat..
the most v can just say summin like
'awww, hi. =D long time no see.. hows life? happy to meet u here!'
-.- tats all. yes, TATS ALL!
i really cant catch wut frenship means sometimes.
i want all my frenship, but i ve not enuf time to take care of them.
see.. i always find excuses for myself, bZ isnt a good excuse tho.
tat y all my frenships are wilting.
but when i really put lotsa efforts on it,
i oways feel tats only one party friendship. =(
friendship meant a lot yet nothing to me.

ytd xin yu called me once she reach bintulu or miri for NS.
im damn happy,
v seldom voice chat when v are in klang.
at least she still remembers me when she is there.
or may be she called the reast of the world only she cal me?
but at least she calls me.
is happy enuf.
on the other hand, i felt damn guilty when she called,
we are seriously drifting apart,
out relationshil is ailing too.
i did not play a good role in this frenship.
as in i did not really put efforts to let this frenship grow happily this year.
unlike last time.whenever u see me, u'll surely see her as well.
we ll be together all the time. monday to saturday man!
altho v are not in the same class,
but v are oways together during the recess time,
before class or free period.
we sleep eat talk play together in every single camp v went.
(we even take bath together. opps, sowie xinyu!)
for now, we are separating..
we r doing different courses,in different colleges.
i dunno how will my life be next.

xinyu.
thx for calling. i m happy!
you are my source of entertainment! =D
you talk shit for the whole five years!
happy five years of frenship!
i really enjoy doing bad stuff v u tho!
hope avthg ll stay the same.





huisin & lilian.
u both may not noe each other.
but u both are catogorised in the same class. lol
THE-LONG-WINDED-ONE.
okie, is called caring at the same time.
u both are always here to be..
a pillar to hold on.
a pillow to cry on.
a toilet bowl to puke on.
you can just listen to my nv ending rants.
u both really helped me alot.
i appreciate ur both presence alot.
since v cant spent much time together now,
our topic eventually getting lesser n lesser.
i dunno how to discribe, but v shared a very special bond.
u should be able to understand.
i truely hope distance wont erase the bond.
i seriously feel happy to ve u both to talk to whenever i'm blue.
thx for being such a wonderful friend.





sue ann.
thx for being v me.
hope our frendship ll continue to grow. yay! =)
hope avthg ll stay the same.
hakka mee n green tea?
our food lar!
spent some time to study there again k?





the class kaki.
whenever we meet, i'll like to hear
'hey. babi pop!'
i'll be happy enuf.
hope v ll ve more gatherings.
we ve too many photos tat i dunno which to put.

sheen.
'hey, chao de!'
i can jus say tat..
v should ve met earlier.
v should catch up more,
sorry for the aeroplane i'd jus put!
hope we ll be still close.
=) no photos? now only i realised v did not snoap any pic!


woon yee & pei yen.
the shopping kakis?
i find comfortable being v u all.
but we no longer share long talks together like how we use to.
i miss those days a lot.
we spent out whole form 2 n 3 together.
we rarely see each other nowadays.
i miss u gals..




tty.
TF.
nuff said.
u'll understand! hope u read this.=)
santa of 25/12/2007.
no specific photo.

hair cut.

saw the differences?
is much more tidier.
obviously is shorter.
i smile more curvy after the hair cut? lol

bright one.

helped my mum all day long.
so, im a good girl today.
if not, im still getting nearer n nearer to be 'the-good-daughter'
well done, yuanteng. =)

lifes awesome! =)

piece by piece, i'll ve pieces

well, i'd decided to go for reffles edu corp.
but family is facing financial prob.
hate tat. i just cant help up.
ll see how on monday.
hate de feelings when frens ask me,
'ey, y dun u follow us go register tomoro?'
dey expect me to reply,
'sorry, i ve no money to pay de fees.'??!
instead. i ve to 'owh, mum said ll register later.'=C
how sad, they think i duwan follow them to register earlier? -.-
im not those rich kid tat thier parents account ve 6 to 7 digits okie!
thier company need to use the money too k.
n theres still a problem.
i feel like staying at home,
but no one wanna fetch me all de way up to ampang everyday!
i wanna continue my piano class, once i stop i'll nv play again, yknoe.
at the moment,for the 1st few months, i've frens fetching me up n down avday,
but after tat..
argh, cant think so much now.
just gonna take a step at a time.
i believe theres sure a way!

its time to come back yuanteng.

okie, i'd been slaking around all day long after SPM, altho i occupied as best as i can. i went out v frens. catch up v those long-time-didnt-contact frens, making christmas cards, playing around, fooling around, sleep, eat, shit. like i really did enjoy my life, but hey, when i think back wut i'd done... NOTHING.
as in nth productive. =( 1st few days, im like in heaven man. i sleep until i wake my self, not alarm clock!

i came up v all bull shit excuses when my cousins, frens, parents ask me to go for like swimming lessons, continue my piano lessons(i stop due to SPM, how stupid is tat), or may be work for part time but i didnt even read any books, exp magazines! hmmp. i felt the guilt seriously.
so i decided join the jan intake. as fast as possible. to cover my guilt? wutever.
im going for interior design most prob,
but i still cant decite where im going to yet.
3 colleges in my mind now.
1.reffles education corp. = too peaceful!
2.the one = too city-ish
3.lim kok wing = too commercialsed

i ve to make up m mind by this week! =.=
i hate decisions!
but.. life is about decisions.
no decisions = no life.
when i ve decisions, i hate decisions.
when i dun ve decisions, i claim tat i ve no freedom. wut is this man.

today i went raffles to ask for enquiry.
than the fella said, remember to to photocopy ur parents ic, ur still not 18 yte.
den im like kinda sad. not cos of im not 18 yet. is like..
im 2 months to be 18 alr. i can register anythg myself.
my parents not gonna bother anymore, im gonna facing lotsa decisions! =(
last time im like waiting for my 18th bday!
wth, is sooo sooo soon.
i duwan so much freedom,
i want someone to control me.
i dun ve good diciplin yet.
i cant ve wings yet,
i will fall one day! =(
i duwan tat to happen.

Tennis just a game, family is forever.

few days back zhen yi had a stay over in my place,
we suppose to go ikea the next day v few more frens.
we had a great nyt, v talk n talk eventually.
den the next day, i woke at 12plus, she went missing.. -.-
den she called n told me,
sorry tat she gotta help her mom v house choirs.
im like..
"wth..y can she jus miss her outing jus to help her mum."
y cant i do tat.
she help up her mum every single day, yet her results is good.
she is a good girl.
im not..
i oways quarrel v mum jus cos of she wants me to accompany her out but i insist.
sometimes i m rebellious i noe.
i always dunno my limits.
i can say i dun really appreciate them much.
i love my family, but i dun contribute or i dun commit to my family enuf.
i just dunno y.
i felt guilty yknoe,
my friends love my papa mama so much.
dey oways say i ve great parents.
n i do ve a great parents.
see how much troublessS i brought them.

on the day b4 sports day,
was busying for the decorations.
my dad fetch me back from skul at 8pm to eat n bath,
fetch me back to skul to continue my work again,
help me to fetch some drums at 10 summin to skul for sport day use.
den fetch me back at 1am to sleep.
wake at 3am to buy my breakfast
wake me at 3.30am, ate.
den fetch me to skul again.
like he ve nth better to do.
he nv even grumbles or rants.

im so shitty.
am gonna help my mum tomoro.
ll accompany them more!
said i will.

good night world.
tomoro will be a better day for sure!

more pictures ahead.

An overdue post.

the day before yesterday.
went the curve v sister, cousin, frens.
theres some events. they spray some foam, like christmas snow.
kids would like it a lot,
I no longer a kid! xP



n we went marche for dinner.
kinda cool.
well, read the words in the pic.
okie let the pictures talk.
owh before that, did i mention,
the waitress n waiter there is so niceee n friendly.=)











































then, v came across this very wierd fountain.
the water flow down biji biji one.
its beautiful when the light reflects.
n we start stroking/cutting the water.
our hands ll like so coincident n dun touch the water.
iz jus so special. =)
photo cant see clear.
go n ve a look, n play v it.
opposite big apple. near baskin robbin.



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i'd nv love dolls or bears before even i was a little gal.
but, today i saw 2 adorable n lovely one!



iz ugly i noe, but iz unique wei.
all the way black! =)









this is another one,
little beannie eskimo, izit a bear?
tis is adorable tho.
the 'cone' can move. btw is from starbucks.
not really worth buying, so did not get any of them. =(

Blessed are those who can give without remembering, and take without forgetting.

give n take dun usually apply on me.
i jus dunno y.
i ll remember what i give n forget wut i took. lol
wondering y im lidat.

*****

class trip.
i dun ve any photos yet.
over all was fun.
i like playing v them in de pool.
but they like throwing me into the pool.
i learnt pool jumping too.=)
stomach was real pain when splashing on the surface of water.
a sweet memory, cos v seldom ve gathering.

*****

14/12/2007 was a great n sweet day.
but the sweetness n greatness doesnt last for de night.

Anger is a killing thing

yes, anger is a killing thing.
i hate going to the bed mad.

yuanteng got mad, lets hope she'll get over it all by her self.
night.

The sweet and the sour: this is what makes great day.

too much to update.
too little time.
will update tomoro!
stay tuned babe!




yuanteng.

it's just different perspective. =D

had a change of plans today n accompanying grandma instead.
woke at 8am!!! slept at 5plus 6?
act wanted to go times square v sheen n frens.
but parents dun allow, reasons?
they want me to accompany grandma to go for medical check up at kl.
me sister mum n grandma.
i was bout to ask 'so many ppl go for wut?'
but mum would definately says im rebelious.
so i kept my mouth shut!
back to topic, so i went there n waited like half an hour,
finally our turn, the nurse says
'ah moi.. appointment bukan hari ini la.
medical term "6/12" bukan 6th dec.
it means check every 6 months! -.-
16th jan datang lagi lar!'
instead of '@#%&@&#!!!'
i 'ah ma mian kin, wa lang yit ge cap lak ho ka lai!' =)
kinda frustrated act! but hehe..
hope my granddaughter would cancel her date jus to take me for medical check up nex time tho!
=D



thgs are oways not as bad as i tot! =)


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going class trip later at 12am!
avthg pack.
hope nth left!

c u people!

BAO22A040.

i'd done my very very final paper in my high skul at 4.30pm sharp jus now!
to yuanteng, its kinda a very big achievement tho!
altho the paper jus now kinda tough!




tis the title of my zuo wen!





the moment i waited finally came! =D
for now, i dun need to see those ugly bookS,
n force myself so hard to finish add maths question!!
hate the sound... 'tick. tac. tick. tac.'
if am not in financial crisis.. lol i would recycle my book! =D
but i jus love money so much! i need it! -.-



tel me hu can resist?




hmm.. btw, for those hu wished me in my exams,
thx a whole bunch!
n now..
im officially a high skul graduate!
*smile real wide*
my hols ll be great!

oyea, my poor little fren had her last paper in hospital!
food poisoning! awww.
but hey.. isnt it summin proud? vip room ler!
kinda historic ryt!




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today i'd steamboat v classmates.
very fun.
bonding?
but.. uh.. v are going pangkor together on the 6th lar!
lol.
after steamboat. went station one!
played jingga or uno stacko? wutever.
those hu lost gotta had a 3 sec kiss!
this is real fun!
no worries. im not lucky enuf to kena!
n tis was wut happened!


end of tonyt!
zZZZ peeps!

frosty the snowman!

you better watch out...
christmas day is real near.
my christmas spirit is high up now!
whooo~ i like christmas deco alot alot.
last time when i was a knee lengh to the grasshopper,
my sister n a fren n i were those who deco the christmas tree!
den v celebrated christmas v turkey n christmas carol.
usually the children(us) ll nv wait for boxing day to unwrape all de presents! lol
enjoy those day alot alot.
somehow, when all grown up n separated.
everyone is like having their own celebrations n parties?
v r all separated, some in still in bangsar.
some in damansara. some in malaka. n one more in taiwan.
n im in klang now. aww, how to celebrate together?
previous year, i used celebrate myself.=(
form 3 was in taiwan! kinda fun.

last year, i spent my christmas v my cousins in hong kong. v did not really celebrate. but the christmas feel there really storng. their deco were so much more nicer den de christmas tree i decorated! lol but somehow the accompanyment i'd last time was so much more greater den in hk?
for now, im not even sure if i can celebrate or not. hope so?
kinda hard to b'lif, a whole year jus passed lidat.

owh yea, im thinking of writing my wish list to santa. =)
where can i post to? anyone?