life's challenges.

today. not a very pleasant day, in fact.. sucky, i would say. beside the morning.
my day started out just like most other fridays. having class at 1030am morning, saw friends and said hello on my way in. things went smoothly.. accounts class.. so called "inter-college-fair".. den gasoline.. everything went close to perfect.

until the A-race started... i dunno how come n why. it just brought my mood downnnn... stupid race. stupid games. stupid team. stupid ppl. i just hate it. im sorry to be rude to my team mate. but yea, i wasn't enjoying. tat y. i didn't even get the chance to look at the clue paper. not to mention to solve it. to solve it or not is a different thing, but i didn't even get the chance touch it. they do it all by them self.. n order the rest to run here n there like some mad cows. worse still, run three wrong places.
may be i should join huisin's group when they offer before the race starts.


after the stupid race, i rushed back for my piano class. hope for the best. but unfortunately, i cant play my 2nd piece. not to mention the scales, oral, sight reading which i really suck at all. teacher said my 3rd piece not qualify to pass also. n i left one more month, 4 more classes before th exam. i really duwan to fail this time. i felt stressed n overwhelmed n it seriously affecting my physical and mental well-being. i really have no idea what to do with it.


after the whole bloody day, i went home finally.. expecting for some rest in order to continue life's challenges. Mum dearest, started her daily rants, n complainsS about her life n basically everything. don't get me wrong, i do love my mum, n she is a super mum i would say. but she is even stressed than everyone do. she is a business woman, a mum, a wife, a daughter, a sister... her role if her life is much more difficult than mine. n so she have to pour out all her dissatisfactions to someone. unfortunately, im the one, her daughter. i use to talk back when im young n think that thats not my responsibility to listen to all her rants n ruin my own day, n end up quarrels. but now, im 18, im no longer the little spoilt kid that acts like a queen. i understand her need as a normal human being, and so i decided to keep quiet and listen to mum dearest. keep quiet because i ve no better suggestions. listen in order to let her feel better. i hope wut im contributing now helps n make some positive changes in her life.


tears n smiles shall call it a day. i knew thing ain't that bad as how it appeared in my mind. but when all things come together at once. who can cope?
i know i shouldn't cry here n move forward. life's going on. but sometimes, i need arms to cry on. i need shelter to rest in. i need an ear to pour on. a pillar for me to hold on when im falling.


specially thanks to mr tan chong yee for being such a patient friend today. you're such a great listener. infact, listening is more than enuf.


stay strong yuanteng.Don’t let tension build up and ruin your. good work. Pace yourself throughout the day.

learning my limits on sunday morning.

went back high school yesterday for scout's camp fire.
beside the events going on and the tasty nasi lemak i had.. i'm feeling rather shock n real happy seeing all my good old friends. sometimes when things happened and things change(which we really cannot control), the friendship eventually fades as time flies. but i didn't know even it fades or we seldom get to know each others new life, talking lesser to each other, the bond between us remains there. i met a friend whom i rarely talk to like for 2 years, but before that we are real good friends.. i didn't know that i act could pour everythg to him, mainly bout relationship. thats one of the thing that i do not share to everyone. he is not those smart, talented, well looking, great man who all girls dream man. but still, i trust him. this is the true friendship? yea.

huisin stayed over in my place. we chatted, not crapped.
sometimes holding things too tightly or taking things too heavily/seriously doesnt mean it wont go. so why not just let it be? when it comes, u appreciate it, when it goes, no one can really stop it. live in the present n have no regrets later on. =D i love this the most, huisin.
i miss xinyu.





i feel like talking to one of my very nice friend in sarawak(he'd beed there for like 2 weeks), but im afraid that he wants a brand new life over there without me. felt to stupid about us.

rojak tales.

getting into a lvls better now.

ex-classmate-keikei going back to hong kong today, she seems really upset, she was quiet through the journey to pyramid on saturday-her farewell. hope she's fine there n doing well.its truely a taugh thg she is going through. no choice but to let go every thing here, after living here for bout 10 plus plus years?? places. her house here, her mum n brother. friendships. relationship? hmmm.hope she will be get into her life in hong kong easily. all the best. =) snap pictures.. but its v sumin.

hah, attn here please...
go check ur mail box now, n see if maybank post u any advertistment brochurss introducing maxis smart plan n free mobile phones or buy in a cheaper rates? well, those mail that usually will not be entertain n known as rubbish soon to be dump into the rubbish bin, or better, blue recycle bin??
DONT throw ppl, donate to me please!!!!! =) read the top fine lines, FREE two KFC snack plates! im smart enough n redeemed 10 snack plate coupons.. (i have 5 family members who all are maybank user!) smart but kind la, donated some to my sistersss! haha. had KFC ytd. =)

feel like continue my hand made card business.. so happy.. my ex-costomer asking bout my card making business. heh, asking m i selling now wey. so PROUD! well, im always. had some ideas alrealy. all i need is just free time! will be posting samples soon. =) so ppl, any occasions coming on? bday? celebration of love? anniversary? papa mama day? random one? YES, custom made by yuanteng.

business history:
200 or 100?? well, i remember its 3digits amount of small cards were sold in a function held in taylors.
about 20plus amount of custome made cards were sold to personnel friends. 20plus only?? yea, all custome made la. brain dont generate so many ideas yknow. n yea, is just christmas cards. so yea, tats y.

proud?
yes.
can?

add maths my dear friend.

before spm-
yuanteng: stupid add maths.. im so gonna forget everything about u after SPM. i promiseeeed. n i will for sure! not saving u in my brain, not even 1mb. -.-

after SPM-
yuanteng: yes!!! finally u've been forgottan! bye add maths. i wont miss u definately! =D

A levels-
yuanteng: sorry add maths.. my bad. my bad. come back to me pleeeeaaassssseee~~?? *watery doggie eye*

dead? where got so fast.

i hate this feeling. i wonder if I'm a little sua ku or not. i cant get into new environment easily. i don't like to change my lifestyle.. i wanna stay the way I'm. i had the same feeling as last time in raffles. i just dont like it. A'levels--boring. Pol here are not so fun as back in high school. they wont speak until u talk to them. i gotta do summin for my life, but i just dunno wut to do. is just so lack of summin which i still cant figure out wut the hell is that. i so miss raffles' chair. every one have got thier own roller chair v soft cotton and adjustable height. den v will be playing v the chair, rolling here n there around the class room. =P xpecially me! owh gosh, i miss some of my ex-classmates too. xpecially when we are playing ping pong. seeing how the ball flys, n claims that v are playing football n golf v a ping pong ball. lol shall stop bout it. face the fact, yuantengs in sunway now. having class later. owh yea, i have 2 hours break almost every day! -.- wondering wut the hell im supposed to do with that super long break.
misses xin yu so much lately, she brought laughters into my secondary life.
misses sumin, she brought meaning into my life, she made me think lotsa meaningful thgs.
misses pek yee while she sits behind me during exam period, she is the fren who would really help, shes not selfish. =)
misses woon yee lilian n pei yen, they made my life more contented.
misses all my frens who brought lotsa crapsssss into my life too. =P