rush of nostalgia at bangsar.

few days back, i visited the place where i spent my childhood. i was living there ten years ago, and i never have a visit ever since i shifted out. i didn't know i miss my childhood SO much.im glad that i went back in time and im able to relive such wonderful memories.
i was so excited, took a deep breath trying hard to smell my childhood. :] flashing back all the good old days, the stupidest thing i did, the cant-get-bored daily routine. magic is just everywhere! :D

moments shall be missed.

• the happiest moment ever - the LAST day of school!! its always the happiest day in a year. the day that every child most looking forward to.
  
  
• catching ladybugs. the red black spotted one, or u can get the yellow black spotted if you're lucky enough!
  
  
• build all you want using pillows. we jump on it, fall from it, build again.. and continue playing the same thing over and over agian without getting bored of it.
  
  
• the worse scene of all is when we are waiting for the arrival of our piano teacher!!!we're afraid of her. she cubit our arms till blue black whenever we play a wrong note. owh, thank you teacher.
  
  
• and when the grass-cutting-man cutting the grass with the spinning cutter making a scary noise. owh, i was SO afraid that the cutter may just cut off my leg or something, i always try to avoid to go out of the house.
  owh, why didnt a enjoy the smell of the freshly cut grass~?
  

feeling under the weather.

It's so gloomy outside,
so do my feelings.

I find my mood lifts considerably when the weather is good and drops badly when the weather is gloomy.

sometimes i feel im out of control. i cant control what im doing. in the end of the day, im thinking what am i doing? why did i messed up my own life? im
still uncertain about what i really wanted from my life, my relationship which i am still unclear if its coming or going. how many times do i need to fail?
owh well, lifes about failing, standing up, accepting and move on, right?

i know its okie for me to feel this way because i am experiencing some changes in life. walking into a new phase of life aint easy especially when i was in that comfort zone for so long.
i am excited about the change, anxious about the change, and depressed about letting go my previous life.

i really hope my class to start soon, and get really busy with life, and somehow, i will settle with my new life. and hopefully, the anxiety and depression will taper off then.

i shall stop wasting my strength struggling against my feelings;
yuanteng, patient and wait.


p.s. pardon me for my berketul ketul English as i had stop blogging since ages. and not studying for 6 months? lol i shall get so books and read now.
yuanteng blogging throughout the rainy weather. and its still raining.

owh! its 2010 already?

i shall continue blogging AGAIN! =D