the niu.

happy chinese new year people! =)

the full stop.

im thinking a lot today.
thinking that what if one day i die. what if i die tomoro? what if i slepp and dont wake up? and left just like that?
i dont wanna die so fast. i dont wanna leave everything everyone behind me just like that. and yet, what can i do to prevent dying? seriously people, dont tel me stay at home. no where is the safest place tho. and i wanna live life to the fullest. how can i stay my life at home? lol
how about my family members? my boyfriends and girlfriends? my boyfriend's boyfriend? my boyfriend's girlfriends? my girlfriend's girlfriends? n my girlfriend's boyfriends? all my friends in short.
they might can live without me. but i cant go and leave all of them aside.
and ofcos the one! you're part of my life.

last time when people is talking about life n death. i would join them, but i always have the thinking like c'mon its far from me la. im only 18! but today i realised life and death is just beside me. i could just leave lidat any secound. may be i cant even finish this post? who knows ryt? but i know i must finish! you people will read my this post okie!
furthermore, the news paper is forcing me to accept that i will die in any second.
people dying every day.
die very very funnily. very unpredically.
his/her own house gate dropped on him/her and die.
a flower pot drop from above, just nice knock him/her and die.
die half way having shower due to electric shock.
die because ppl mis-killed him/her.
people's car crushed on his/her car on the way to thier wedding place, although driving very safely.
die while sleeping or eating with family due to tahan runtuh?
not forgetting tsunami and earthquake?
seeeeeee.. really ridiculus ryt? but all this lead to death. very sad cases.
do they know they are dying soon? anything they wanted to say? or do?
i am very very sket of dying! i dont want to die so young. i really really dont want to leave this world.
why crying very hard wont help living longer?? =(

last time when i came into those "100things to do before you die"
"places to visit before you die". i always do flip through. but like others as usual, fliped trough and place it back. and worse still forget everythg the very next day and tel my self 'buy next time lar. now a levels where got time to read?'
read d so what? i oso got no money to go there' -.-

life and death is beside us. im sket!!!! but hell, i wanna live without fear! live very meaningfully and peacefully!

so many things i wanna say to so many people.
so many things i wanna do before the day come.
but hey, our inbox is always piling.
where got ppl nothing to do one?
i wanna kiss my future husband!
i wanna hug my child and tel him/her that i really proud of him/her!
i haven't go through my adulthood!
my 21st birthday?
my retirement?
i wanna hold a piano grade8 cert.
i wanna hold degree cert/s.
still got master ler?
i wanna make my parents proud of me.
i want my husband feel pround of having me!
arrrrgh! even i achieved all this so what? will i be prepared to leave?
NO!!!!
*i just dont wanna die!


where will i be afetr leaving?
my energy will converted into what? air? sunlight?
is there really god/goddess?
do female god undergoes period?
will male god falls in love with female god?
or fall in love with two female gods in the same time?
is god friendly?
will he/she takes me to heaven?
forget bout hell. i dont wanna go there!
is there such thing like re-born?







im fear.

as hui sin said.

the more u sleep, the more the number of brain cells got killed.

so people,
total number of brain cells i killed during this holiday due to over slept:8346564385645683765896275893265902378932895678923758989578937598375983759743867475689476897435967475t847896746783768937895768943756765489751575153478615781324324564132456132003054530324845484649797846541975419761564765167491369438475864562045073647279082524745652974576219754726757546754712921762179549761718416794751574197256741846179516721675915754267519721642978972637419761791476171741574815467189476127616978498764562132431756487945762189746754977974516385268596519775917756489776478945749747917641791761764764579+45975984975726179416716791
and total number of brain cell alive and function well: 0

today morning, raymond brought me out for breakfast, he wants to photostate our accounts homework. i woke at 9am!!!!! or 930Am? lol after makan n chated, i reached home bout 12-ish pm. yuanteng continue to sleep. -.-
and woke at 7pm! =.=
i was like 'wah!!!!!!'
fine. nvm.
then, felt a little guilty, so open my accounts and planned to finish up before skul reopens. damn it. zero brain cell left. how to do?

FIRST.

2009 resolution.
its all about a levels.




just the three hundred and sixty five days.
just the twlve months.
just 2009 alright!


its time for yours truly to show her true power!















so, are you ready?

ring out the old.

ring in the new!

2008.. kinda a miserable year.
the year that yuanteng got sucky SPM result.(n yet not sad!)
the year that yuanteng faces choosing her next path after high school
the year that yuanteng chose wrong course.
the year that yuanteng deferred here n there.
the year that yuanteng transferred here and there.
the year that yuanteng asking for help n advises, n yet no one can actually help up.
the year that yuanteng looses high skul friends and learn to let things go.
the year that yuanteng adapting new environment.
the year that yuanteng adapting those cultural shock.
the year that yuanteng really dont enjoy going to the school and those craps activities.

Ring out, ring out my mournful rhymes
Old papers thrown away,
Old garments cast aside!
shoooohs!

ring~ WAIT! ring~
let the sweet one remain in yuanteng's heart!
2008..
the year that yuanteng and him are we.
the year that yuanteng turns aliens into friends.(no offends my 2008-made-friends)
the year that yuanteng take in new stuff. accounts. and economics! and a little bit of designs!
the year that yuanteng solved rubik's cube the magic cube.
the year that yuanteng bake delicious cupcakes with beautiful toppings.(especially thanks to rachel.)
the year that yuanteng went langkawi with them very happily.
the year that yuanteng stayed in the 5stars horsy hotel.
the year that yuanteng experienced in a 180km/hr car.
the year that yuanteng performed a duet piece.
the year that yuanteng learns to play mah jong in advance level.


see... ten vs ten! balance! my 2008 new year resolution was to balanced up life.
so?
resolution achieved! =D

The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months!

make it a BEDTIMESTORY.

yes, i watched bedtime story today.
i can grade it as 5stars out of 5 tho!
so watch it people.
i hafta buy the dvd,
miss the last part, dun ask me why! -.-

thanks!